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Madonna sering dianggap “reinkarnasi” Marilyn Monroe, terutama di tahun-tahun awal penampilannya. Ada semacam stereotype, blonde girls are just stupid. Tapi rasanya ini tidak berlaku untuk dua perempuan ini. Kabar terakhir, kematian misterius Marilyn Monroe di kamar tidurnya mulai terungkap. Perempuan ini dianggap “berbahaya” karena dekat dengan keluarga Kennedy, terutama JFK. She’s a very smart girl, got involved too deep into something and that made her got killed. Sementara Madonna, diantara segala lintang pukang perjalanan kariernya hingga menjadi bintang, membuat Madonna ‘berbeda’ dengan kebanyakan artis-artis lain yang hidup di permukaan. She IS deep.

Kalau dua perempuan ini (dengan icon/ gaya pose mereka yang sudah terkenal itu) disatukan, sangat masuk akal. Tapi kalau kemudian pihak produk shampoo memilih KD sebagai duta lokal mereka, nah, itu baru menarik untuk dibahas..

What a Shame

Ketika akan menuju kantor, saya melewati Jl. Durian. Di depan ada mobil Avanza (atau Xenia?) berwarna biru muda dengan plat DK sekian sekian CM (saya tidak begitu memperhatikan CM/ QM). Mobil tersebut melaju sangat pelan –padahal di depan tidak ada kendaraan lain. Saya tidak bisa mendahului dari sisi kanan sehingga saya ikuti saja sambil mencoba bersabar (bahkan meng-klakson pun tidak).

Saat berada di sisi belakang kanan mobil tersebut, pengemudinya membuka kaca jendela sehingga saya bisa melihat bahwa pengemudinya adalah pria asing berkacamata hitam dan bertopi. Kemudian tiba-tiba saja pria tersebut (dengan sengaja) membuang secarik kertas seukuran karcis parkir melalui jendelanya sambil tertawa lebar dan melihat saya melalui spion nya.

Narrow Minded

People can be so narrow minded, you can’t imagine how they can let themselves become one. Because how we become as a person, is really our own decision.

Beberapa waktu lalu, seorang teman yang saya tau ‘sangat normal’ (berarti dia mengikuti semua standar-standar kehidupan normal agar bisa disebut sebagai manusia ‘normal’ juga : menikah, punya anak, hidup lurus-lurus saja, melihat hidup dari sisi hitam dan putih saja, padahal hidup sangat abu-abu, semua mungkin terjadi) sempat menggumamkan sesuatu tentang “selingkuh”. There’s a song written about it, tentang “selingkuh sekali saja”. I knew he addressed that to me, because he couldn’t help himself for not asking me ; “it feels good, right?” And I simply said that sure if feels good, it can be done over and over again, according to the situation, and then I left with such a big question mark inside my head. I mean, did he really think that he KNEW why I broke up and now with somebody else (a much better one, of course) ? And judge me for doing an affair, a betrayal? But then I remember that he was a ‘victim’, because his girlfriend cheated on him once and left him for somebody else, of course he’s being negative when he thought an affair is happening. But what a stupid girl, it turned out that later on she pleaded to come back but he refused her and he said bad things about that girl.

There’s an urge to straighten his judging mind, but then I knew it’s useless. His mind is not capable to accept that whatever ‘bad’ things which happened in our life, is simply because of us. People come and go, we can’t blame people for all the bad things in our life. Whether we think they betray us, do us harm, we can’t blame others. Simply think this way : it happened, so it must be something that really need or have to happened, because nothing can prevent it from happening. IT HAPPENED. Why people think they are so ‘great’ that they deserve only the good things in life? What about things which make you uncomfortable or sad or hurt? Do you think you’re not deserve those? But it happened! Do you think the higher Being (or just God) made mistakes, miscalculate things on how this universe works? Do you think you’re a victim, because you think you done ‘nothing wrong’ and yet bad things happen in your life (good and bad is our mind concept too).

Feeling Blue..

I begin my day in an “average” mood, never thought that in the middle of the day it can switch to this kind of mood. Not sad, but it made me cry.. It’s not a negative feelings but it just that- it reaches to certain layer within me that made me cry. I realize that at this stage, I really felt the need to share my good energy for people that I actually cared about, despite all the things that once happened along the way.. All this time I believe that if I can keep giving my good energy, compassion, empathy towards certain people who believe that I done them wrong, that somehow I hurt them..I believe they will understand sooner or later- with the help of Time- that it was really a lesson in life. Both for me and all the relationships I’ve ever had with people around me.. And I’ve seen it works today.

Feelings can be so strong, it may blindfolded us to see the way that made for us in the beginning..But that kind of feelings for me is really a tremendous experience in life that help me to grow, help me to see my own darker side and bring it to light, making it a more mature feelings, feelings that have seen a lot. Whether people give me happiness or bitterness or perhaps both, I knew I’ll always feel grateful because they add colours to my day by day lives..

There are certain people that has become my inner circle, that somehow I believe we will always be connected spiritually, and will meet again someday in our life, in a more enlighting moments. For that, I will always think of them dearly, sharing them my good energy simply because they’re one of my inner circle for this moment of life..

And then there were Silence..

Bali in a deep silence. It’s Nyepi day, my most favorite day in the whole year, more than I like my own birthday or the New Year (according to the Gregorian calendar). For Balinese, Nyepi is a new year, and 2008 will be the year of 1930 according the Saka year. It’s time to take the journey within and it can really makes you your own best friend in a way.. There are 4 basic “rules” on Nyepi :

Joy-talk on Nyepi day

Always love Nyepi. Feeling so fresh afterwards. In the day-light, I can do anything I want, enjoy the silence, day-dreaming, meditate- but not so often – or just enjoy one of those books I haven’t got the chance to finish (although I knew reading books is also can absorb my attention to outer not my inner self).

But the most “fun” thing about Nyepi is because there’s a lot of things to talk about with my family. It’s not only because most people believe in family values, so family does matters- but it’s a personal experience, the talks can be your media to express yourself. Probably in our everyday lives, we can have such an experience when we talked with close friends. But one thing for sure, not everybody can stand their own family, right? On Nyepi we are “forced” to see them, to be surrounded by them because we can’t go anywhere! For some it might be a nightmare, can’t wait the day to be over and get on with the ‘normal’ life- not talk too much with parents, can’t see them often, etc. For me, Nyepi can be fun and fulfilling experience because I can stand my own family

I’ve been through a not so nice moments in the old days with my parents- just like everybody does. When I was a child, I adore my father because he seemed strong, reliable, loving.. and quite an ‘important’ person his social life. But as I grew older and got more to see in life, I knew that I won’t be able to adore him the way I was in my childhood. I understand that he is an ordinary person who have his own problems, anxiety, fears.. At first I felt disappointed (that he’s not that great) but then somehow I can take it.

It’s the chance like Nyepi which made me accept things in my life including my parents, and give them the respect they deserve. They maybe not ‘that perfect’ as parents but the fact that they became my parents in this moment of life, it must be something behind it. Something that I must learn, live with, to comprehend my own life.

Fertility Test

Menikah, bagi sebagian besar orang bisa jadi merupakan impian, atau cita-cita semasa anak-anak. Khususnya bagi anak perempuan, pesta pernikahan merupakan dongeng abadi antara putra mahkota dan putri raja yang berakhir “bahagia selamanya” begitu pesta pernikahan usai digelar selama 7 hari berturut-turut dan dihadiri rakyat diseluruh penjuru negeri.